I was generously invited to speak and close the tenth and final MEL Intensive Week and International Conference on the 21st August 2026. The week had indeed been very intense and emotional, with long days, late nights and little in the way of free time. Speaking right at the end of such a week and of an entire degree program was always going to be a challenge. To be frank, it did not go well and the whole occasion got the better of me, and I do not think I was able to express the things that I wanted to say. This post is an attempt to address that. This is not the script of what I planned to say, but rather my writing to express my feelings about the occasion.
Still Becomings
The title was planned to have an unresolved ambiguity that might even be understood as an oxymoron. The first word “still”, is it being used to mean unmoving, static or as continuing, carrying on? Then “becomings”, used in plural on purpose and suggesting the latter meaning of still, but why not a singular becoming? I admit that I was playing with words and also wanting to present something very authentic and personal about my ideas, in a way that made readers ask “what?”.
I did feel the genuine weight of being the closing speaker and in the weeks leading up to the event I pondered for a long time about what form it should take.
Should it be a eulogy for the program and all that it stood for? That felt too melancholy, too much of a wallowing in what had been, in the loss. Anyway, the week had been framed as a celebration, not a mourning. Also, with the evolution of MEL into the new association, the International Network for Educational Leadership (INEL), this was in some ways a birth or rebirth (resurrection?). Although the university has ended the degree program, the spirit of MEL, the community, the people, the ideas and the values – all of those are still very much alive – and Still Becoming.
Those who know me will not be surprised that the next idea was a polemic. After all I have been known to rant, to be the old man who shouts at clouds. That felt off as well though. No matter what frustrations I might be feeling, this was not the time and place to be venting, late on a Friday afternoon. I would be lying if I said I was not tempted, but the rebellious old punk is, it seems, also Still Becoming.
A lecture then? I am after all, allegedly, according to my current employer, a Senior Lecturer. But there had already been lectures and keynotes by speakers much more qualified and interesting than me. Who wants more content to think about at 17:00 on a Friday after a tough week? I do not feel like a lecturer, I feel like I am an Educator and I am Still Becoming an Educator.
So, what to do? What is this?
It is a heartfelt and sincere Thank You.
On Encounters
conditions we leave behind,
and what it means to still be becoming.
I ask for your indulgence as I work through this description.
Encounters. I want to thank everyone in MEL for the encounters, alumni, students, colleagues and friends.
Thank you for the encounters that changed me.
The encounters with each of you, as individuals and together as community.
Encounters with your work and ideas.
During intensive weeks.
During Online Open Office Hours (OOOHS).
In your forum posts and comments. Oh the forum posts – often like deep dark rich chocolate cake – so good, so filling…
In your Key Assessed Tasks.
In the community we have built outside the institution, in LinkedIn and the book club that became MELOH.
Over 200 alumni and students in that LinkedIn group. The legacy map with over 150 pins representing you located all around the world.
In the friendships that have developed and been maintained and now with the next stage as MEL evolves into INEL – the encounters that are Still Becoming.
MEL itself was a continuation, an evolution. It has DNA and the roots and origins can be traced back. MEL did not come from nowhere, everything comes from somewhere and is always in the process of becoming something else.
So, here I need to acknowledge some of the influences that led to MEL.
I acknowledge 21st Century Educators, an earlier program designed by Hanna Davis and Marko Teräs. If there had not been an encounter in a hotel bar in Melbourne at an international conference then MEL might not exist and I would almost certainly not live in Finland. There might well be some sort of degree, as the conditions in ‘idea space’ were conducive to something being developed, but it would not be what we are celebrating as MEL.
The influence of the team led by Carita Prokki when I first moved here – my own recollection is that the seeds of an idea were partly germinated during a talk I had on a flight back from Brazil with Carita, about what degrees we could offer as a continuation of 21st Century Educators. An encounter on a flight and a teacher education program starts its evolution to a degree.
This is serendipity.
Be open to these moments.
Be sensitive to the chance encounters – the plurality of possible futures that we have.
Often, we do not know we are even having life changing encounters until after the event.
There are also other types of encounter.
When I introduced Gert Biesta on the Friday morning, I said how influential and important his work has been to me and to this program, and that is true. But of course, not only him. There is also Paulo Freire, and the whole critical pedagogy ‘gang’ of Shor, hooks et al. Then there are others, such as Neil Selwyn, Tim Fawns. Hartmut Rosa. And on, and on, and on and the point here is not to give you a reading list of thinkers – you can go back to Moodle or contact me for that if you wish.
This is a sort of canon. Or if not a canon, then at least a field of scholarship, and I have been in encounters with it for years. Reading. Reflecting. Thinking. Pondering. Letting things percolate. Percolate with the rich chocolate cake!
What I only really noticed later, after MEL had been running for a few years, is that what MEL offered its participants was not only that canon, not only content and the readings, but it was also the thing that allowed the encounter to be metabolised.
The time.
The space.
The structure.
Permission to sit with something difficult and not rush to a resolution or understanding.
I hope and suspect for many of you it is Still Becoming, because those ideas do not stop working on you when the KAT and the Thesis are submitted.
The problem we face is that we are usually in systems that require these encounters to deliver prescribed and measurable outcomes. That assume that education is a sort of engineering or production problem based on cause and effect. But we all know that not to be true, that there are infinite variables, that it is risky and unpredictable. That really teaching is an art and craft and not a science. Anyone who has tried to educate knows that each educational encounter is unique and that things can go in unexpected ways. There is a haecceity to education, a ‘thisness’, and it is this that makes complete control and predictability impossible.
I would ask you to indulge me while I briefly offer an example of this ‘letting go’ of control from the MEL program, the Key Assessed Task. I designed the Key Assessed Tasks in my courses as one small way to open things up and let go of some control, to let you decide what to produce and how. I tried to not just gesture towards Biesta’s ‘beautiful risk’ but to embrace it.
This was not because I do not care about assessment, it is because I felt that is how it should be done on a program like MEL. We need to open up space and opportunity and not close it down to something that was convenient and efficient for a teacher to assess to standardised metrics.
What I came to understand was that holding on to control had been serving me, not you. Having control made me feel like a competent educator in charge of things. But did that help you?
I love the work you do for the Key Assessed Tasks. When you too embrace the freedom and choices you have. I also admit that I still dislike sitting in judgement of them.
In the section above I have been writing mostly about the first part of the talk description, the encounter. How encounters change us, change us whether we plan them or not and change us whether we wanted it or not.
On Legacy
When I was invited to speak to close the conference, someone, and I really cannot recall who it was, called it the Legacy Keynote.
This got me thinking a lot about this word – legacy. What is a legacy?
“…conditions you leave behind for others to thrive…”
“…the doors you have opened…”
“…the possibilities you have nurtured…”
This is you – this is what you do in education and as educators and as educational leaders.
This leads me to ask a question.
What is the legacy of MEL?
It is not the degree. The degree is ending. I do not think it is the credits, or the certificates, though I hope they have been useful and I know for some of you they matter a great deal. I do not disregard or disrespect the importance of these. But are they legacy, I think not.
I do not think it is the content or the curriculum, even though we spent time thinking and reflecting on these.
The legacy was there on that Friday and is ongoing now as I write this. You came back. You joined online. At your own expense and from all over the world. To be with peers, with friends, to meet new people and like-minded people, and to be a part of this network. That moves me, and that is why it was so hard to speak on the day of the keynote.
This is not about the degree or the university, but it is about the people. You. Students and Alumni organised the week. People who graduated years ago were sitting next to people who finished last year and students who have yet to finish.
There is the book club that turned into MELOH.
There is a map with over 150 pins in it. There are friendships in this community that will, for sure, outlast the thing that made them.
And now, just emerging, there is a new network with a name and a constitution and built without an educational institution sitting behind it. This is because of all of you.
That is the legacy of MEL. The Conditions left behind.
Not only what is left, but what carries forward when people announced that it would stop.
So, what was the program really trying to do at a level deeper than credentialism? I would say, not delivering content and not achieving outcomes.
It was making conditions. As already stated, the Time. Space. Structure. Permission.
A group of people who are willing to take each other seriously.
A group of people who are willing and able to trust each other.
And then getting out of the way of whatever happened next. Letting the ‘beautiful risk’ play out.
These are the possibilities we have nurtured. This is challenging in contemporary educational contexts. It is hard to defend to those we are accountable to because this stuff is hard to measure and quantify. It does not fit very well as a Key Performance Indicator.
So, what do we do?
How can we work on what we think really matters within systems and structures that perhaps prioritise other metrics and ways of understanding what education is?
On Doors and Cracks
I have been doing some thinking about that and I have been influenced by the Yoruba, Nigerian thinker, writer and philosopher, Báyò Akómoláfé. He writes about the structures of institutions and organisations, society and culture. In particular he writes about doors and about cracks!
As he states, doors behave themselves. They are an integral part of the design, and they grant access and also permit exit. They are a technology that maintains the logic of the institution (Akomolafe, 2024). Doors are the prescribed way that we should move through the institution.
But cracks, as Bayo goes on to say, cracks do not behave. We do not design cracks, but they enable some flex and they can allow some interesting things to happen. Cracks “…are not ‘solutions’, not guarantees, not final answers” (Akomolafe, 2024). I think this is what makes cracks more interesting than doors.
I have come to see MEL as perhaps a crack that had to pretend to be a door in order to be allowed to exist.
I know I am being heavy on the metaphor here and it may well break down on close analysis, I do not know because I am still thinking it through, still becoming. But here is my thinking. Institutions need structure and things like –
Learning outcomes.
Credits.
Competency frameworks.
Curricula.
Schedules.
These are all like doors in the structure of the organisation.
They are important.
They are necessary.
All of it approved, all of it in the right font with the permitted image and colour scheme.
Through the crack come the things that actually matter. Not just the light that Leonard Cohen celebrates in “Anthem”, but also –
The conversation that went somewhere nobody planned, not drifting off course, but seeking a rabbit hole and, like Alice, enjoying an adventure.
The thesis that changed what somebody believed about their own school or about the very purpose of education itself.
The Intensive Week session that opened a Pandora’s box.
The bits that were not on the schedule.
The things not in the curriculum – the liquid, the flow.
But cracks are fragile, and eventually somebody notices that they are there. They are dangerous and have to be repaired and filled in.
On Time
Playing in the cracks is risky and it also takes time and as I have already written, I think one of the vital things that MEL provided was time and space.
To do that I think we have to consider being inefficient and slowing down. This seems counter intuitive perhaps, but think it through.
Time is a condition underneath all the others, and it is the one that institutions find hard to permit. We live now in an age of acceleration and pressure to be efficient, to rush, to learn faster, to accredit what we know already rather than learn anew, graduate quicker, summarise, cut corners. And underneath it all, the veiled instruction: do not spend time thinking critically.
There is, it seems to me, no time to wonder, no time to ponder.
Time.
Not efficiency. Not speed. Not productivity. Time to sit with something difficult and wrestle with it. As Haraway would say, to stay with the trouble.
Bayo Akomolafe says:
let us slow down.
A lot of what I like about MEL came out of slowness and inefficiency.
The long forum threads.
The Open Office Hour where we talked for almost 2 hours.
The Intensive Weeks, where the value was never really the content of the sessions but the coffee and corridors and the dinners and the walk back to the hotel.
Still Becoming
So, what now?
Nothing here is finished.
That is the whole point of the title. Nothing is finished, everything is Still Becoming.
MEL is becoming INEL.
The community is becoming whatever you make of it next.
Many of you are becoming something different in your own schools and systems, and that process did not stop when you submitted your thesis.
I am also Still Becoming, and I have no real idea what into, and at my age, that is a better position to be in than I perhaps expected.
Octavia Butler put it better than I can.
You Change.
All that you Change
Changes you.
The only lasting truth
Is Change.
That is the whole argument of this talk really, there in those lines.
You changed me.
I hope some of what happened here changed you.
And the changing is not over, for any of us.
I said at the start this was a thank you, and it is. I said at the start that I was not sure what the final words of the MEL conference and program should be and I decided that from me it should be a question.
Not like me to leave you with a question, is it?
with your one wild and precious life?
Thank you. All of you.
References
Akomolafe, B. (n.d.). A slower urgency. https://www.bayoakomolafe.net/post/a-slower-urgency
Akomolafe, B. (2024). On doors and \cracks\. https://www.bayoakomolafe.net/post/on-doors-and-cracks
Biesta, G. J. J. (2013). The beautiful risk of education. Routledge.
Butler, O. E. (1993). Parable of the sower. Four Walls Eight Windows.
Cinnamon Tea, A., & Ladybugboss, D. [Machado de Oliveira Andreotti, V.]. (2024). Burnout from humans: A little book about AI that is not really about AI. Gesturing Towards Decolonial Futures. https://burnoutfromhumans.net
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Rosa, H. (2020). The uncontrollability of the world (J. C. Wagner, Trans.). Polity Press. (Original work published 2018)



